ambivalence and still on Tao

too many years to count

or even diagnose
what the fuck got broken .

stupid and childish.
still palpable.

it's a little knot you feel for 

fearing 


        the tumor.

since AK47

and SVD

and Vintorez.

i would really love a Vintorez 9x39.
an awesome machine of rugged simple efficiency.

all our wars fell on my perspective
all of them i missed.

so it seams it is long over due.