slow learning

compliance
&
fuck me,
a surprise.
eaten away
nerve by nerve
a bit of compensation.
at a time
&
now
all out of
relief.
color
&
smell
ought to reassure,
driven home
i remember i forgot
 it's utterly unrewarding now.
well,
fuck me.
ought to keep a log.
forgot to remember
that
i am worn through.
all the way.