dawn like fast tide drowning drenching everything light hurts underlining dirt

i actually watch
the paint dry.

often.
guess it could be made
meditative,
but,
i have enough of that
laying through the night,
hard tramadol comedowns,
06.20
push more in,
verge serotonin syndrome.
functional.
just.

morning sickness
&
morning suckness
&
morning detachment
of getting head,
halitosis
&
this must be what
fucked up moments of pregnancy feel like
or
the morning of the day
one takes a petn/tatp martyrdom
trip.

sucks ass.