it's a beautifull thing, but then it's not

raining.
uncertainities
pilling.

a perfect day to
wallow in my
own
shit.

&
call it
love.

existential dilemma no. 57 or dread of incipit failure & dwindling powers

should i push this 200 mg
of methadone
all in one go
&
see what happens...

I'm so
fucking
boring.

I wave as it goes down the drain

well this sucks.

I'd rather

carry M.E.K.P. around

in a paper coffee
cup

while smoking

while pouring

gasoline

while drunk;

than have to wrench

a

unambiguous answer

out of you.

it's a bilateral dissapointmet

setting in.

eating all those preconceptions.

I don't want to know.

well fuck me, it does work

aluminum did it
&
vacuum sealing
against
moisture.
the stink
of
ammonia
has never before
been gratiffying.
I'm mildly impressed
with myself.

махновщина

I've read
that antibodies
can linger
for
a lifetime.