erradicate humanity or crisis of fate; the cause that ain't lost isn't worth the hanged man nor his time

drinking into sleep
&
it ain't going well enough.

a cigarette.
another.

dull blade,
I clean the wax & ash 
from under fingernails.

another.

slowly
slowly
perspective gets weird 
vertically
&
horizontally.
ethyl.
another.

as 
" the bosses  right to live 
is mine to die"

&
another,
saturation to the software fuck up point,
hence
i get nostalgic
sentimental,
all the petty malfunctions.

another.
100 & some more proof,
a stupid angloamerican measurement
24 grad,
that one i know & understand.
serious poison.

&
another.
what the hell was I intending to write,
i can't recall

pass out time.

it's just people . stoked up, living their own virtuality, no doubt proud of the achievements...... blast the fucking walls down to expose, & it is just shitty people & their shitty agendas

ignorant & undereducated
well,
I am kind of working on that.
not too much though- strictly technical stuff.

having delegated most of my existence
&
without  much choice on anything;

 keep what little is left of my human integrity
tucked away.
more\less safe.
even from me.

strolling through the fields,
mud.
dying annuals.
fuck.
behold the famed fence.
that is BORDER for any of you who accidentally stumbled across this text,
& read this far. you may not be familiar with the concept.
 see, the mutants set up the lines encompassing the
mud
dying vegetation
moles
people
birds
topography
& 
the fucking sky.

mutants set up, as well, the fraud, colloquially known as monetary system
free markets
&
the like;
I know these things because, firstly, I am a junkie & a lot of it is analogous
                                        & secondly, I read .

lovely& oh so reasonable, they ( which in fact is us) just crave 12.7 to the groin.

& you delegate all the development, commerce, politics, everything all thr\e way down to the local. 
& the gears are turning- so easily we learn to except their scheming, murdering, lying, the whole freak show.
cause it is soo much easier.
&we learn to be thankful for what little security, stability, prosperity, predictability, security... mutants do for you daily.

ok,
they fuck up grandiosely most those things,
but it's a process, there are bound to be some mistakes.
& we learn to delegate our safety, allways forgetting
that there is no one
              safe 
              nor
             innocent here.
you learn to be thankful, 'cause  shit,
now you can pursue your so important dreams.
   

           you really ought to watch out for that.

          for gratitude to pigs.



* thanx for the material Kovac

peripheral circulation fucked up&down or too cold to sleep & it is not even december yet

importance of preparation should not
be underestimated.

therefore, I can't help but feel
thoroughly stupid.
stupid or maybe just
consistent.

it is not mutually excluding.

freezing my fucking spine off
is quite an experience;
from what I read 
a warm, human body
helps upping those Celsiuses
efficient as fuck.
 
    no reason not to believe it,
    after all, it was nazi meds
that came up with the technique.
maybe liable for firing squad,
no, surely,
but they knew their shit.
ah, well, got  to stick to less efficient methods, 
the body required is not on disposal.